I have to say there are times when I feel so honestly blessed to have grown up the way I grew up. Last week was one of those times.

I got some goats last spring as they were runts and a friend of mine didn’t want them, we’ve let them sort of roam around and they have gotten to be somewhat of “mascots” around the place, providing some pretty good laughs here and there.  Recently we’ve also added some puppies to the mix, one permanent puppy and one regular visitor.  The puppies also find entertainment in chasing and barking at the goats, which we do not condone and definitely discipline when we see it happen. However animals are animals and when we’re not around the mice will play.

This particular day the puppies had decided they were bigger and could have more fun with the goats so they chased them and chased them. I forgot to mention these goats are so fat and short (I attribute it to not getting their colostrum as “kids” – hahah.. get it?) so they are like tubby little lawn gnomes running around. The dogs eventually had them in the back of the barn barking at them, the one goat jumped down the large cow feeder and got his neck stuck in one of the squares, while the rest of his body hung down the side, he was bleating and bleating (that’s the sound goats make), my dad rushed to get him out of there, and he was able to still walk at this point, but soon after he showed signs of spinal damage so much so that he wasn’t able to stand properly.

Enter my sister Laura; she is a fiery red head that is literally a walking ball of love (I dare you to try to resist her charms). When we were little kids we would go to see the cranial sacral therapist and osteopath and she would teach us about bouncing a tennis ball between our hands, throwing it with one hand and catching it with the other (ok, so the tennis ball was just a ball of energy in our mind’s eye, but still we could feel it and it was super cool!!). I have been saying for quite some time that I think Laura (both my sisters actually) has this incredible talent to be able to heal, in fact I started asking her to use her energy on me (heheh yup Im totally a mooch!), I found her energy soothing, and I could feel it working throughout my body, I kinda like the “buzzing” feeling I always get when I go to energy workers, its like your floating on the table! (it’s really just as close to flying my inner child can get so I take it!).

So Laura being the walking fiery ball of energetic healing powers that she is, called our energy lady and asked what to do (through tears of course… you will know if you are an emotional ball of love how it is, the emotions just fall out of you, its part of the beauty of these types of people, so raw and authentic).  Through some coaching, Laura spent some time with the goat, while the goat resisted the touch at first, there was a moment in which it surrendered and trusted Laura, you could see it as its whole body relaxed and it realized Laura was here for good.

The other day I walked into the barn to see both goats bounding around the hay loft, happy as, well… goats in a hayloft!  It’s moments like this, moments of true beauty that I am reminded of how grateful I am to have been brought up on the farm, to have been raised “alternatively” in a time when alternative was so very outside of the box, I am grateful to my parents for having the courage and the sustenance to stay true to their convictions, to seek out ALL sides of the story and to really take ownership of their health and their lives.  It’s stuff like this that you can only really experience to believe it.  Its stuff like this that makes me so happy to be human, so that I can experience it!

Ive been enjoying my time off (that I have to say was the hardest thing I had to do, I even had to turn of the automatic notifications to my iphone...its so tempting to just quickly respond to a few emails and before you know it you've missed your family gathering!) But I've also been in a place of lets just say a fork in the road....knowing there is something for me do, a message inside me that pushes to get out, but not knowing how.

Today I feel inspired! Today I realized that as much as I have something to offer for other people to gain benefit from (and I know people do), I am in it for the pure exquisite joy, unadulterated pleasure of playing in the game of my own health, the pursuit of physical well-being, spiritual well-being, the pursuit of off the grid-ness (you know what I mean). They say in alcoholics anonymous that the best way to keep yourself sober is to help someone else stay sober! This is genius! The best way for me to keep myself in check and on the path of joy and pleasure and physical emotional and spiritual well-being is to help others do it too!! This may not sound like genius to your ears, but GOSH did it ever sound like genius to mine!

Pictured here is my little reading oasis that when everyone leaves the house I sometimes retire to usually with guilty feelings and my little caged tiger in my mind racing around saying "oh my look at the time" (I imagine it sounds like the voice of the clock in Beauty and the Beast), and you should be working, how are you going to accomplish what you set out to if your not working!?! Yes, its pretty punishing at times! I think it runs that particular rotation of messages because I was brought up in the environment of the farm (which i cherish with all my heart and wouldn't trade for the world). On the farm there is never enough time, if your not moving things aren't getting done, and money is made through physical labour... My revelation today was " my work is not my fathers work". WOW blew me away. My work is not my fathers work, my fathers work is that of physical labour and do do do and go go go... my work is to stay inspired and to experience the joy of making gel and soap from scratch, to make cheese, and to stay in the pursuit of pleasure that my heart sings to when I'm in that place, there is no place to GET to, like at some point I'll be successful and I'll be able to have all the time in the world to make cheese and lye from scratch and play around with cows and not have to worry about rusty water and and and... well in actual fact as many spiritual teachers say, the time is now. Do what gives you pleasure now, in the present moment, do not wait. And the cool thing is whether those things end up making me money or not, the vibrational space I'm in will create a whole new set of possibilities and opportunities! I'm drawing the experience closer to me, the experience of joy and great pleasure - which after all is what I want, I only think that hoards and hoards of money and the perfect house will be the MEANS and WAY of getting me there! I can create it RIGHT HERE and right now!

What makes your heart sing? Have you been listening to it?
Gosh its like natural drugs to be in this space, I only hope I get to experience more times like these :D

Hugs from the farm!